Words Matter as We Fight to Eliminate Stigma

Jolene and PaulDecember 7, 2010 is a day I will never forget, though its not so much a memory as it is this vivid video I’m trapped in as it plays back in my mind. The phone rang. Matt answered it. Looking scared and confused, he passed the phone to me saying, “It’s your mom,” and I felt my stomach drop. My mom didn’t even say hello, all she said was, “Jolene, you need to come home.” I knew something terrible had happened. And then, those two words that caused more pain than anything I had ever felt in my entire life, “It’s Paul.”

Paul was my brother, the only sibling I had, who at eighteen committed suicide.

At the time, Paul was an undergraduate student at Brock University studying business. He wanted to be an accountant. While we fought like most siblings do, my brother was one of my best friends—the only person who really knew me. I couldn’t believe I was living in a world where Paul no longer existed.

In the days, and weeks, and months following my brother’s death, one of the most difficult things for me to deal with was the stigma of suicide and mental health issues. People told me my brother was selfish for ending his own life, and whispers circulated about how kid from such a good family could choose to end his own life.

I didn’t want to be known as ‘the girl whose brother committed suicide,’ and it was until years afterwards that I started to realize why. The sticking point for me is on the verbage: “committed suicide.” People commit theft, commit treason, commit murder, commit adultery—all things this that society has deemed inappropriate, and which have even been criminalized by law. The word ‘committed’ in front of the word ‘suicide’ then naturally perpetuates the stigma that suicide is bad, and someone who committed suicide is a bad person.

My brother was NOT a bad person; he was my best friend—my partner in crime, my study buddy, my rock when things got rough. I’m not ashamed that he took his own life, but I am frustrated with the stigma of suicide that continues to persist.

This year the theme of the United Nations International Youth Day is Mental Health Matters. Over 280 million youth around the world suffer from a mental health condition, but only one out of every five will receive the help and support they need. For many of these youth, the stigma attached with mental health is a major fact in their decision to ask for help and received treatment. I know it was a reason for my brother.

So how do we break the stigma to increase youth access to mental health programs? Promotion and awareness are definitely important, but it starts with the words we use. The continued marriage of ‘committed’ and ‘suicide’ will only continue to mitigate progress in breaking the stigma. Words matter. And to break the stigma, we need to change the words.



6 thoughts on “Words Matter as We Fight to Eliminate Stigma

  1. A tragic loss for all of us and a very well written blog. Losing the stigma and breaking down the barriers to mental health is certainly the goal. In keeping with your points, Paul lost his life to mental health and was taken by suicide. Love Dad

  2. I am sitting in a restaurant having lunch. Tears are streaming down my face as I read this piece. The ladies at the next table are starting to look at me with concern.

    I am touched by a sister who honours her brother in such deep and powerful way. I grieve for a nephew who was lost to an illness as stealthy and overwhelming as any other. Most of all, my heart goes out to parents and a sibling who live with loss mixed with wonderful memories of beautiful young man.

    How do we change the conversation? Well I think that you just did.

    With all my Love

    Uncle Al

  3. Hi there,

    This was beautifully written. Thank you for having the courage to share your story.

    I was a first year student at the University of Ottawa when this awful tragedy occurred, but as an athlete, I had the opportunity to travel to Brock many times. Even though I never knew your brother, I remember hearing of this and feeling hollow inside. I have a close friend who suffered from depression for many years and it’s inspiring to see an unfathomable tragedy used to change the conversation and potentially save lives.

    I was wondering if you could elaborate on some of the language you believe might be more useful when discussing suicide and depression. I think we’ve all been conditioned to use certain words in certain situations and I believe this is only heightened when we wade into conversations that are emotionally charged or make us uncomfortable. Having a few key terms and phrases that we can cling to during these difficult conversations might go a long way in helping us through them.

    Again, thank you for your courage. From my brief review of the comments, it seems like you have a very supportive and loving family. I wish you all the best.


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